Another Stranger

is it me or am i just pretending of not knowing it at all?

well, i know one thing, and maybe i'm trying to recall

that i am just another stranger who pass by saying hello

then there comes a day where this stranger has to say goodbye

i've rose from my greatest fall

but still my life is rolling like a ball

am i just trying to run away from this shadow?

as far as i'm concern i've been living under the same old lies

you came into my life and lighten up my darkest days

you shine like the sun and comfort me like the breeze

you showed me how to survive every day

you put my soul alight

but somewhere in the corner of your mind

there's a change of heart

i'm still caught in questions

it bugged me all the time

i might pretend to not ever question it then

though how my heart needs to know the truth

but it's plain to see that i'm just another stranger who drops by

saying hello then goodbye

every day seems so different than the days i had before

still deep within me

i'm just a stranger in your own heart

It Flew By...

Another day spent...

hmm... I might say it's not such a bad day but it's kinda a bit dull and maybe boring

well.. boring is just another word for it, anyways, today, I think it's the 2nd day it rained.. oh gosh..

I can feel the season now.. woohoo.. hooray! LoL

And today, the folks just got into the studio, getting their bad ass and ready to kick some fine tune out there, heard it, it's good.. and up until now, they're still hanging out.. well, it's sort of a-long-time-no-see thing going on.. hahaha

Yet, it's still awkward for me.. since I deactivate my facebook thing, kinda miss it though.. hey, i'm going back anytime.. it's kinda boring as well, but I kinda feel a bit awkward of being a "7-eleven" a.k.a 24/7 on the line.. I annoyed my parents.. LoL

But what else I'm doing.. yup, I've been asked to find a job -I didn't go for it- reason, have no thoughts about it, what a thought, right? and then I'd go complaining, whatever-whatever

still I am spending my time surfing the net, looking for something new.. searching for new info..

YouTube.. download some few goodies oldies songs... etc-etc.. and yeah, i started to tweet! haha

well, maybe Twitter isn't as 'fun' as Facebook but still it's a whole new thing for me.. to me, it's nice as we are able to see or know what other people are doing... Honestly, Twitter got a whole bunch of superstars... LoL.. It's new to me and to everybody but once you're in, it's everything...

Can you believe it's already mid November??

A month before Christmas... yup, and then New Year again.. damn, how time flies...

the whole year, I mean this year, I can't say it's bad, I can't even say it's good but well.. it's spicy year I think..

Had the awkward October, yeah, it's definitely awkward, don't know why...

And, this year is just weird... Some superstars doesn't last long, R.I.P to them

A sad year for them...

Anyways, today is such a weird day... I mean, I don't even realise today's Saturday!

Oh God, am I just forgetting everything now?

Such a weak memory... I don't even remember the date!! all I know is that it's November!

Well, maybe it's a sign of telling me, go out and have a run for your life... LoL

and well, my lips are hurting.. and damn.. it does killing me..

Some things never change yet some things do change

And those things keep bothering my head...

It burden my heart as well

I wonder why..

Alright then... I think that's all for today, Bloggy!

>Fogive Me Twice<

"....How Things Have Changed.....121109"

Well, it's a very strange day for me..

I mean, days, I guess...

Been gone from a site, and I'm surfing the net looking for something new

And guess what, I did found a very few things and that gave an inspirations and everything

Also, I gained something from a know-nothing to a know-something even it's just for a little tiny things..

And today, say it's a 'whoa' day..

I woke up and got my neck aching.. damn.. I can't even turn to the left

Even worst *almost*, my mum asked me to drive her to work

One thing, I didn't tell anyone about it..

I'm trying to be cool, I'm trying to be fine here...

Truth is, I can't.. But still I'm trying though

As I was driving, I did look all around me..

How some things has changed over the past few years

I did notice almost like everything

Nowadays, there are no more kids running around with friends like it used to be

No more teenagers hanging around with their guitars and bicycles.. whatsoever

Hey, by the way, teenagers nowadays are more modern.. they are more up-to-date than the person writing this here...

Funny thing is, teenagers nowadays are very much different than the past few years

I have to admit, I am one of it but if you think about it, it's totally different

There are no more "us" thing if they work in a group.... trust me

Not many teenagers are like that nowadays

And then I noticed that all the old folks are now getting much older or should I say wiser

Well, time flew so fast ain't it?

How time has changed the people around

I can't even imagine myself now and then

I was just a little baby boy and now turning into a grown man

And I haven't still got anything! What the.. Oh well...

I ain't getting any if I don't start from the very beginning

Well, ok, anyways, moving on

Or else I'd be throwing off the same old thing over and over again

Yup, still am thinking about that f******* &%*#*#(@())!! thing.. LoL

If I think about it, I think we were all cheated by that thing...

Gosh, why on earth are they living like that??

I thought they were the best but then they turned it the other way

F**** it if they don't have anything else..

Gosh, sorry I'm being so rude here..

Anyways, anyways... Enough is enough now

I wonder if I can spend myself a little more time to myself before Christmas

Yeah, Christmas is just around the corner, ain't it?

And also I'm gonna buy "Where We Are" album... I just can't wait!! Huwaaa...

I may be will spending some time off then maybe a week before Christmas

Maybe earlier.. Depends though as a plan can change...

And I wonder also... hrrmm...

Well, I'll be back there.. I will.. and start over...

Ok.. maybe that's all.. I don't know what else..

Until then...

.::L.O.V.E::. [A Painted Feeling]

"Love is a painted feeling.."

Every missing pieces...

They say you should find these missing pieces to complete the picture

It's like you're playing a jigsaw puzzle

That's how we fell for one another

The feeling of loss felt deep inside

And long to find the other

It doesn't matter about the distance being too wide

Every lover would sacrifice their life to get over their loved one

And dare to take risks of life

And maybe that's why they call love is blind

And love knows no boundaries

And everyone who fell for love would be such a fool

It made everything right in their own world

Sometimes it drove you crazy and carried away

And sometimes love knows no limitations

Some would ask why they feel such a strong feeling deep inside

And wonder why it appears in all of a sudden

It turns a grey little world to a colourful little world

It turns every sadness to laughter

And they'd feel it'd grew so strong

They even know when you're losing it all

But love isn't all about the laughter

Sometimes it leads you to your own nightmare

Love can bring you death

And all the sorrows take over when you're losing them all

Like what the folks said, you can't always have good things in life

Face it, love isn't a pure beautiful

Love has its dark side too

Love is still a mystery

It bring you all you want but expect the unexpected from it too

But love has always been part of life

Which we can't define it

Love is universal, we might have a different view about it

Love is white, love is black, love is blue.. Love is just everything

From the joy to sadness

You can't say you don't have love for living

'Cause love is within us from the moment we were born...

Last Flight Out

I'm so scared that you will see
All the weakness inside of me
I'm so scared of letting go
That the pain I've hid will show

I know you want to hear me speak
But I'm afraid that if I start to
I'll never stop

[c h o r u s]
I want you to know
You belong in my life
I love the hope
I see in your eyes
For you I would fly
At least I would try
For you I'll take
The last flight out

I'm afraid that
You will leave
As my secrets
Have been revealed
In my dreams
You'll always stay
Every breathing moment from now

I know you want to hear me speak
But I'm afraid that if I start to
I'll never stop

[c h o r u s]
I want you to know
You belong in my life
I love the hope
I see in your eyes
For you I would fly
At least I would try
For you I'll take
The last flight out

I cannot hold back
The truth no more
I let you wait too long
Although it's hard and scares me so
A life without you scares me more

[c h o r u s]

I want you to know
You belong in my life
I love the hope
I see in your eyes
For you I would fly
At least I would try
For you I'll take
The last flight out

Like Only a Woman Can

I wasn’t perfect
I’ve done a lot of stupid things
Still no angel
I wasn’t looking for forgiveness
Wasn’t laid out by my pride
Shocked by her attention
And someone signed me up for love
I didn’t want it
And now I can’t live without it

She changed my life
She cleaned me up
She found my heart
Like only a woman can
She pulls me up
When she knows I’m sad
She knows her man
Like only a woman can

She’s kind of perfect
She’s kind of everything I’m not
Yeah, she’s an angel
And it’s amazing how she’s patient
Even more at times I’m not
She’s my conscience
And who decided I’d be hers
I wanna hate them
Cos now I can’t live without her

She changed my life
She cleaned me up
She found my heart
Like only a woman can
She pulls me up
When she knows I’m sad
She knows her man
Like only a woman can

Like only a woman can
And who decided I’d be hers
I wanna hate them
Cos now I can’t live without her

Oh, and she changed my life
She cleaned me up
She found my heart
Like only a woman can
She pulls me up
When she knows I’m sad
She knows her man
Like only a woman can

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don't know what else to think about.. it's just this..

Song of Your Heart

I heard you crying,
I heard you, I heard you
I feel you're bleeding
It can't stop, it can't stop
I wish I was there with you now

Why don't you just close your eyes,
And we'll meet in your dreams
I'll wash away all the lies
Though how impossible it may seem
I want to read your heart

But I heard your heart singing a song
A song which you wrote when you're alone
And it's longing for the pain to go away
Well, I don't know much about healing, girl
But would you let me be the one to make you happy?

I can't read your eyes nor your heart
But I do know now that I can't leave someone who's in need
I promise you this with all that I am
That I will be there by your side forever and for always

And then I will sing the song of your heart
And that I will wash and erase all your pain away
We'll build a whole new start
And you will listen to my heart saying
I love you that much

It isn't hard to see what I really feel
'Cause I'm here for you and it's for real
Just put your hand upon my heart

Father and Son

It's not time to make a change
Just relax, take it easy
You're still young, that's your fault
There's so much you have to know
Find a girl, settle down
If you want, you can marry
Look at me, I am old
But I'm happy
I was once like you are now
And I know that it's not easy
To be calm, when you've found
Something going on
Take your time, think a lot
Think of everthing you've got
For you will still be here tomorrow
But your dreams may not...

How can I try to explain?
When I do, he turns away again
And it's always been the same
Same old story
From the moment I could talk
"I was ordered to listen"
Now there's a way, and I know
That I have to go away
I know, I have to go...

It's not time to make a change
Just sit down
and take it slowly
You're still young, that's your fault
There's so much you have to go through
Find a girl, settle down
If you want, you can marry
Look at me, I am old
But I'm happy

All the times, that I've cried
Keeping all the things I knew inside
And it's hard
But it's harder to ignore it

If they were right, I'd agree
But it's them they know, not me
Now there's a way
And I know that I have to go away
I know, I have to go.




A nice song to sing...
I like it...

One Last Song

Take my hand, touch my face
Let me feel your embrace
Let me see in your eyes
That you won’t say goodbye
Just tell me how you feel
I don’t know what you’re thinking anymore

And if you need me, you’d kiss me
Then tell me how you feel
And if you want me, you’d show me
That your love is for real
And if you love me
You’d hold me in your arms where I belong
So while I’m feeling strong
I sing you one last song

Let me ask time has passed
Do you feel this could last
If you don’t, why then stay
Take your wings, fly away
I love you way too much
To wanna be the one who brings you down

And if you need me, you’d kiss me
Then tell me how you feel
And if you want me, you’d show me
That your love is for real
And if you love me
You’d hold me in your arms where I belong
So while I’m feeling strong
I sing you one last song

One last song I sing for you
Like I always did
This time it’s for real
I never come to you like this
Expecting you to turn my kiss
Oh no no no no no

And if you need me, you’d kiss me
Then tell me how you feel
And if you want me, you’d show me
That your love is for real
And if you love me
You’d hold me in your arms where I belong
So while I’m feeling strong
I sing you one last song
Oh yeah
I sing you one last song
I sing you one last song

ONE LAST SONG

Sorry

Sorry,
A word that is hard say when you did something wrong
And this is what I should tell you now
I'm sorry that I've fallen for you
I never meant to have such a great fall
I don't understand my heart,
There are no words that can describe it
Since I'm not so good with words

Forgive me,
For I have done wrong to you
Lately, I'm not myself and I'm dying to know why
If God can speak through my heart then I'd listen
They say praying and hoping aren't enough
You must have effort to have what you really want
I don't know, I'm not sure
It's just that I'm too afraid to lose
And I'm too shy to ask
Afraid that I might have the same story as before

Sorry,
I didn't mean to start it
But please don't tell me it's too late
Please don't tell me there's no space for me there either
I'm confused, so confused
No words can picture how I feel right now
Just hoping you'd understand

I'd stop if you want me to, sorry

Gift

A lovely angel,
Who stays up late at night
Always bring a cheerful thought to a blind man
Giving all the spirit that she can
To enlighten the soul of the blind

A lovely angel,
Who smiles through her eyes
Can heal a thousands of helpless soul
Giving all the hope she can
To give them a peace of mind

Lovely angel in disguise,
You were sent from heaven
To light up the dark, to enlighten the souls who suffer
You're the gift from God
Yes, you're definitely an angel

Lovely angel,
Your touch heals the wound
Your smile heals the pain
Your eyes shine like the sun
You are a gift and you should know it by now
That you are an angel

Helpless Poet

My heart is bleeding,
My mind is hurting
Thinking of you, thinking of you

My heart is aching,
My mind is blocking
She's all I had in mind, she's all I had in mind

If she can hear my helpless thoughts,
If she can reach my careless heart
Then she would know what I really feel

Wish I can tell you just how I need you
Just how helpless I'd become since I know you
But why do we have to be apart?
Why do we have to risk this heart?
Oh girl, look at this helpless poet
He's nothing, nothing without you

Don't ask me how did I fell in love with her
A foolish heart fell for the last time
Hoping this heart is cared and loved until forever

She's the wonder, she's the dream
I can't hold much longer
But she's so far away, wish I can reach her

Wish I can tell you just how I need you
Just how helpless I'd become since I know you
But why do we have to be apart?
Why do we have to risk this heart?
Oh girl, look at this helpless poet
He's nothing, nothing without you

All the time I spent with you,
You didn't notice that this fool fell for you
I can't help myself but I'm afraid that you'd go away
Like any other girls I knew
I don't know who you are, but I know this much is true...

Hey! Hey! Hey!

I am confused, confused of everything
I don't know until when will this confuse thing will last
I'm worried about myself
About my studies, my life, everything

It's like it's been almost 5 months now that I spent -and wasted- my whole time at home for nothing!
It's almost like I'm waiting for sun to come down
Truth is, I've had enough of waiting
I know I should go and find a job while waiting for this so-called result to come out but I refused to
I don't have thoughts of getting a job right now
All I had in mind is to continue my study and to make myself better in knowledge'
It's not that I'm not worried but money can wait, I don't chase for it

I am gonna start to write this over and over again 'cause I'm just frustrated about this stuff
I should've done any better before this but I didn't
And one thing that I regret the most is I listened to my father,
Don't get me wrong, it happened just after I got my SPM result in 2006 and I got an offer somewhere from a college in Labuan, I'm so excited, you know what, they offered me tourism!
I did receive a letter and I can't picture just how I'm feeling that day, I did told my father about it but then well, he wanted to let me but he changed his mind and stupid me, I listened!!

I've slipped two chances to fulfill my study, both in tourism and hotel management
Well, the thing was both were listed as "college" and my father wants me to go to a "university"
To me, I don't care which one to go as long as I can complete my study
But I had to gave it up, let's just say, my father worried about me
I know, honestly, I never been away from my family but I can't be a baby boy forever, right?

Why tourism/hotel management?
I don't know why, it just came to me
I love to travel and explore the world, it's beautiful
Well, my father wanted me to take business course
My mother wanted me to be a doctor or something like that
Hey, I know what I want and it's not I don't want to follow what they ask me to but I should be honest to my dreams
And one more thing, they also did asked me to take music lesson and guess what?
It's actually one of my biggest secret but I didn't go for it because I don't have the talent
I can't even play guitar, and I'm not good in reading the notes
But I really wanted to take music -someday-
If I had a chance, I'd like to take guitar and maybe piano, how about harmonica?

I have my dreams and I wanted to achieve it with pride
But I won't celebrate it by myself, the success that someday I'll achieve is for my family and even my friends
I know I never tell this to my family and friends that how much thankful and grateful I am to have them in my life, especially for their supports, the fun, everything
I wish I can turn back the time and have it all with a blast!

Well, I just wish I have a flying colour results
And hopefully to continue my study with joy!!
That's all for now, Mr. Bloggy...

Confused~

You are the reason for me to wake up early in the morning
You are the reason for me to smile every morning
And I am sure that you're an angel sent from above
Now there's no denying that I'm in love

Love of my life,
Can't you see it in my eyes
Love of my life,
You washed away all the lies

How I wish you are feeling the same as I do...

If words are like these hands that can touch,
Then I wish my words can touch your heart
You are the rhythm, you are the tune
And I am the beat and I am the words
It's like a perfect love song
Oh, we can be together like this
We're the love song of our lives

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Well, I don't know if what I'm feeling is right or wrong
It's like I fell for a girl and again too shy to say it
Maybe it's because we haven't met face to face yet
Maybe it's because I've had enough of starting a relationship via this so called technology
I need a change for this new relationship (if there's any chances for me, that is)

Lately, I'm not being myself -at all-
I don't know how long I can hold this...