Hey! Hey! Hey!

I am confused, confused of everything
I don't know until when will this confuse thing will last
I'm worried about myself
About my studies, my life, everything

It's like it's been almost 5 months now that I spent -and wasted- my whole time at home for nothing!
It's almost like I'm waiting for sun to come down
Truth is, I've had enough of waiting
I know I should go and find a job while waiting for this so-called result to come out but I refused to
I don't have thoughts of getting a job right now
All I had in mind is to continue my study and to make myself better in knowledge'
It's not that I'm not worried but money can wait, I don't chase for it

I am gonna start to write this over and over again 'cause I'm just frustrated about this stuff
I should've done any better before this but I didn't
And one thing that I regret the most is I listened to my father,
Don't get me wrong, it happened just after I got my SPM result in 2006 and I got an offer somewhere from a college in Labuan, I'm so excited, you know what, they offered me tourism!
I did receive a letter and I can't picture just how I'm feeling that day, I did told my father about it but then well, he wanted to let me but he changed his mind and stupid me, I listened!!

I've slipped two chances to fulfill my study, both in tourism and hotel management
Well, the thing was both were listed as "college" and my father wants me to go to a "university"
To me, I don't care which one to go as long as I can complete my study
But I had to gave it up, let's just say, my father worried about me
I know, honestly, I never been away from my family but I can't be a baby boy forever, right?

Why tourism/hotel management?
I don't know why, it just came to me
I love to travel and explore the world, it's beautiful
Well, my father wanted me to take business course
My mother wanted me to be a doctor or something like that
Hey, I know what I want and it's not I don't want to follow what they ask me to but I should be honest to my dreams
And one more thing, they also did asked me to take music lesson and guess what?
It's actually one of my biggest secret but I didn't go for it because I don't have the talent
I can't even play guitar, and I'm not good in reading the notes
But I really wanted to take music -someday-
If I had a chance, I'd like to take guitar and maybe piano, how about harmonica?

I have my dreams and I wanted to achieve it with pride
But I won't celebrate it by myself, the success that someday I'll achieve is for my family and even my friends
I know I never tell this to my family and friends that how much thankful and grateful I am to have them in my life, especially for their supports, the fun, everything
I wish I can turn back the time and have it all with a blast!

Well, I just wish I have a flying colour results
And hopefully to continue my study with joy!!
That's all for now, Mr. Bloggy...