Another Stranger

is it me or am i just pretending of not knowing it at all?

well, i know one thing, and maybe i'm trying to recall

that i am just another stranger who pass by saying hello

then there comes a day where this stranger has to say goodbye

i've rose from my greatest fall

but still my life is rolling like a ball

am i just trying to run away from this shadow?

as far as i'm concern i've been living under the same old lies

you came into my life and lighten up my darkest days

you shine like the sun and comfort me like the breeze

you showed me how to survive every day

you put my soul alight

but somewhere in the corner of your mind

there's a change of heart

i'm still caught in questions

it bugged me all the time

i might pretend to not ever question it then

though how my heart needs to know the truth

but it's plain to see that i'm just another stranger who drops by

saying hello then goodbye

every day seems so different than the days i had before

still deep within me

i'm just a stranger in your own heart

It Flew By...

Another day spent...

hmm... I might say it's not such a bad day but it's kinda a bit dull and maybe boring

well.. boring is just another word for it, anyways, today, I think it's the 2nd day it rained.. oh gosh..

I can feel the season now.. woohoo.. hooray! LoL

And today, the folks just got into the studio, getting their bad ass and ready to kick some fine tune out there, heard it, it's good.. and up until now, they're still hanging out.. well, it's sort of a-long-time-no-see thing going on.. hahaha

Yet, it's still awkward for me.. since I deactivate my facebook thing, kinda miss it though.. hey, i'm going back anytime.. it's kinda boring as well, but I kinda feel a bit awkward of being a "7-eleven" a.k.a 24/7 on the line.. I annoyed my parents.. LoL

But what else I'm doing.. yup, I've been asked to find a job -I didn't go for it- reason, have no thoughts about it, what a thought, right? and then I'd go complaining, whatever-whatever

still I am spending my time surfing the net, looking for something new.. searching for new info..

YouTube.. download some few goodies oldies songs... etc-etc.. and yeah, i started to tweet! haha

well, maybe Twitter isn't as 'fun' as Facebook but still it's a whole new thing for me.. to me, it's nice as we are able to see or know what other people are doing... Honestly, Twitter got a whole bunch of superstars... LoL.. It's new to me and to everybody but once you're in, it's everything...

Can you believe it's already mid November??

A month before Christmas... yup, and then New Year again.. damn, how time flies...

the whole year, I mean this year, I can't say it's bad, I can't even say it's good but well.. it's spicy year I think..

Had the awkward October, yeah, it's definitely awkward, don't know why...

And, this year is just weird... Some superstars doesn't last long, R.I.P to them

A sad year for them...

Anyways, today is such a weird day... I mean, I don't even realise today's Saturday!

Oh God, am I just forgetting everything now?

Such a weak memory... I don't even remember the date!! all I know is that it's November!

Well, maybe it's a sign of telling me, go out and have a run for your life... LoL

and well, my lips are hurting.. and damn.. it does killing me..

Some things never change yet some things do change

And those things keep bothering my head...

It burden my heart as well

I wonder why..

Alright then... I think that's all for today, Bloggy!

Sorry

Sorry,
A word that is hard say when you did something wrong
And this is what I should tell you now
I'm sorry that I've fallen for you
I never meant to have such a great fall
I don't understand my heart,
There are no words that can describe it
Since I'm not so good with words

Forgive me,
For I have done wrong to you
Lately, I'm not myself and I'm dying to know why
If God can speak through my heart then I'd listen
They say praying and hoping aren't enough
You must have effort to have what you really want
I don't know, I'm not sure
It's just that I'm too afraid to lose
And I'm too shy to ask
Afraid that I might have the same story as before

Sorry,
I didn't mean to start it
But please don't tell me it's too late
Please don't tell me there's no space for me there either
I'm confused, so confused
No words can picture how I feel right now
Just hoping you'd understand

I'd stop if you want me to, sorry

Hey! Hey! Hey!

I am confused, confused of everything
I don't know until when will this confuse thing will last
I'm worried about myself
About my studies, my life, everything

It's like it's been almost 5 months now that I spent -and wasted- my whole time at home for nothing!
It's almost like I'm waiting for sun to come down
Truth is, I've had enough of waiting
I know I should go and find a job while waiting for this so-called result to come out but I refused to
I don't have thoughts of getting a job right now
All I had in mind is to continue my study and to make myself better in knowledge'
It's not that I'm not worried but money can wait, I don't chase for it

I am gonna start to write this over and over again 'cause I'm just frustrated about this stuff
I should've done any better before this but I didn't
And one thing that I regret the most is I listened to my father,
Don't get me wrong, it happened just after I got my SPM result in 2006 and I got an offer somewhere from a college in Labuan, I'm so excited, you know what, they offered me tourism!
I did receive a letter and I can't picture just how I'm feeling that day, I did told my father about it but then well, he wanted to let me but he changed his mind and stupid me, I listened!!

I've slipped two chances to fulfill my study, both in tourism and hotel management
Well, the thing was both were listed as "college" and my father wants me to go to a "university"
To me, I don't care which one to go as long as I can complete my study
But I had to gave it up, let's just say, my father worried about me
I know, honestly, I never been away from my family but I can't be a baby boy forever, right?

Why tourism/hotel management?
I don't know why, it just came to me
I love to travel and explore the world, it's beautiful
Well, my father wanted me to take business course
My mother wanted me to be a doctor or something like that
Hey, I know what I want and it's not I don't want to follow what they ask me to but I should be honest to my dreams
And one more thing, they also did asked me to take music lesson and guess what?
It's actually one of my biggest secret but I didn't go for it because I don't have the talent
I can't even play guitar, and I'm not good in reading the notes
But I really wanted to take music -someday-
If I had a chance, I'd like to take guitar and maybe piano, how about harmonica?

I have my dreams and I wanted to achieve it with pride
But I won't celebrate it by myself, the success that someday I'll achieve is for my family and even my friends
I know I never tell this to my family and friends that how much thankful and grateful I am to have them in my life, especially for their supports, the fun, everything
I wish I can turn back the time and have it all with a blast!

Well, I just wish I have a flying colour results
And hopefully to continue my study with joy!!
That's all for now, Mr. Bloggy...

Confused~

You are the reason for me to wake up early in the morning
You are the reason for me to smile every morning
And I am sure that you're an angel sent from above
Now there's no denying that I'm in love

Love of my life,
Can't you see it in my eyes
Love of my life,
You washed away all the lies

How I wish you are feeling the same as I do...

If words are like these hands that can touch,
Then I wish my words can touch your heart
You are the rhythm, you are the tune
And I am the beat and I am the words
It's like a perfect love song
Oh, we can be together like this
We're the love song of our lives

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Well, I don't know if what I'm feeling is right or wrong
It's like I fell for a girl and again too shy to say it
Maybe it's because we haven't met face to face yet
Maybe it's because I've had enough of starting a relationship via this so called technology
I need a change for this new relationship (if there's any chances for me, that is)

Lately, I'm not being myself -at all-
I don't know how long I can hold this...